Yes, still a lot of pain today, ironically, from pain management yesterday.
Today the pain was like lightning again – and the meds don’t seem to touch it.
I seem to really be struggling to stay positive for the Caudal Epidural on Friday. I really fear (near panic) the thought of a needle in my spine as well as this being my 7+ surgery/procedure I have hoped to be pain free after.
My self worth and image are straight down the crapper due to pain, lack of sleep and feeling like I let every one down.
So – I am putting on my big girl skirts and remembering that I CAN CAN!
I Can function in pain with no sleep.
I Can ignore lightning down my leg.
I Can not freak out at scary spine needles.
I Can still find hope.
I Can love me no matter what.
I Can know I do all my body allows me.
And I can Can Can (in my dreams). Who wants to Can Can with me?